THE GRAMMAR OF DEFIANCE
Five chalk-sticks
aligned beside the blackboard—
not missiles, exactly,
but close enough.
Her fingers—
thumb and middle—
white as chalk cliffs,
losing themselves to weather.
Dust hung in the air,
unsure whose side
it was on.
She lifts one.
The room listens.
This is how language works,
she says.
Frontlines.
Fault-lines.
A sentence must know
where it stands.
I am the exception
she cannot diagram—
a misprinted dictionary,
letters in retreat,
logic leaking
through the margins.
She twists my ear.
A small correction.
In the name
of clarity.
Yet something
in her sternness
shook—
as if she too lived
under rules
she could not name.
In one letter
and out the logic—
that's you.
Sometimes the letters
rearranged themselves
the moment
she looked away.
I try to hold
the shape of her insult—
it shifts.
You'll be a metaphor
nobody understands,
she tells me,
and something in the room
shifts—
chalk-dust rising,
proof scattered
in the air.
Years later,
I think of her
as I let loose a line,
letting it run
where it shouldn’t.
I write now
with the bruise of her lessons
quiet in the grain—
a faint inheritance
of weather.
Her lessons
still there,
thin and white,
breaking,
breaking,
against the page.
And in the fracture,
language survives—
not through obedience,
but through escape.
© Alistair Sherwood 2026. All rights reserved.